1,460 Hours. I peer at the clouds looming above me, absorbing their bleakness. The sky, the dead tree next to our house, the leafless lilac bush bordering our lawn – all grey, but especially, me. Two months have passed since my husband died and I am beginning to dread waking up almost as [...]

Instantly I was caught in a cloudburst drenching me with panic and disbelief. My mind, unable to comprehend, tried focusing, but my body felt assaulted, struck by the crushing blows of three words. Stage 4 Cancer. We sat on the beach, held each other close, and cried. My husband’s [...]

Something horrible happened. My world crumbled. I remember the terror filling my heart, the first time I peered into the ominous… black… pit… A tractor accident had ripped my husband Greg away from our lives, away from our two teenage sons and me in 1997. And there, one day I found [...]

Immediately images flash before my eyes of hollowed-eyed victims in concentration camps and tiny children from third world countries laying limply in their mother’s arms. Starvation. A cruel word, and for millions of people, not just a word or picture but the harsh reality of their [...]

I awoke after another restless night of agonizing loneliness. My senses heightened by constant waves of sorrow undergirding my every thought and breath. He is not here. My love, my Tyvin. Wrapped in a heavy blanket of grief for nearly 12 months it seems to have developed a life of its own. Some [...]

The tub was too hot, but I got in anyway. I turned the knob to cold and rapidly swished my arms mixing and churning the water around me, my heart ready to explode. Too much to contain. Too many emotions were flooding my mind and soul. My legs turned bright red from the heat, matching […]

Death is unnatural. We were formed in the image of God and designed by a loving Creator to live free of pain, sickness, sin, brokenness, and most importantly, separation. Death is not in our original DNA because it isn’t in God’s. Existing outside of time, he never intended that we experience [...]